walking from the crowd
detached from everything that made me stay.
His wings were dripping from the sky
disguising it as rain,
a disgusting retribution for the love
and all the fame he thought would come from all the praise.
No saint left, no demons,
no Sunday paper martyr,
crucified from black and white defilers.
Just some flowers in the cradle,
lullabies in choir
quiet at the table,
wine’s feeling lighter.
wishing my body was next to you
emptier than Antilles,
blank canvas on this room.
Chance to find my happiness
a chance to start anew,
this change was way long overdue.
But I can’t call this a home yet,
it’s a fire or a silence
makes me feel so anxious
and I know they’re starting to notice,
I kiss this sun to forget
all the good I got and then left
but it burned my will for living
don’t want to live like this.
from Sour Candy Summer,
released September 13, 2016
Written, performed, mixed, and mastered by Justin Fernandez.